Fixed the Time Stamps. They were still on Eastern Standard Time.

Ok, enough. I'm going to bed. More tomorrow.

What? I Promise!




*Skip forward seven years...*

Back so Soon? Well as I said, my day was shitty and angsty and I still have a few minutes before bedtime.

(I was promoted to management at my hotel job. In addition to much better pay, I no longer work the god forsaken graveyard shift! I also have to get up at 6:30am six days a week. ...yay.)

Let's see...love live.... nope. Natta. Things didn't work out with 'Amy', A.K.A. "The FUCKING CUNT".

*ahem*

She was great. Really. In a Holier than Thou, uptight preening lil' princess kind of way. *shivers* Love truly is blind, especially when the object of your affections is unbelievably hot.

You know, all the postings I used to make about my sexuality, and coming to term with liking guys, and all the fantasies I had... I've STILL never been with a man. Though, since I've only had, like, two relationships, that's not saying very much.

But anyway, I've met this very nice, very cute, older lady. And she's Russian. (I've come to realize I have a thing for european accents)

So, back to my day. It's just been one of those days. Long shift at work, I had a lot of errands to run afterwards, and it started raining. And me without an umbrella. Then when I get home (I'm redecorating/reconstructing my room) I realize I got the wrong color paint and forgot a few crucial parts.

And the Russian girl was supposed to come over. She didn't.

Blah.

Hello?

Anyone there?

...

Well, where to begin... My T-mobile sidekick got turned off when I missed a couple of payments, and by extension, I was no longer able to use it to Blog, either.

I can't believe my last post here was over a year ago. God, time is flying by so fast. It seems to have accelerated since I moved to San Francisco.

By the by, January 22nd will mark 5...five......FIVE... years on hormones. Jesus, 5 years already?!

Ok, I'm sorry. I know what the imaginary reader is thinking right now...

"WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING HERE?! WHERE HAVE I BEEN?! WHY AM I BACK NOW?!"

Well I was trying to log into my fanfiction.net account, and I had changed the login email to my old Sidekick account, so I'd be able to receive fic reviews directly to my phone, thereby, depending on the comments, inflating or crushing my ego throughout the day.

Trouble was, I had forgot my old email addy. So I went to 'Blake's Blog', the last post being March 6, 2005 btw, and found the email address. Blake420@punkass.com? WTF was I thinking?

So re-reading Blake's Blog sent me back to UCOMDL v2.0, and it just so happens that my day was shitty and angsty enough to cause me to login and post. So, here I am.

Will this be a frequent thing, or will I once again fade into the ether? So much has happened, there's so much I want to talk about... but who can say?

Though I have proved on numerous occasions that my word means absolutely nothing, I might just stick around a bit.

If only to get everyone up to speed...

--My (brief) Return--

I guess I'll open with a cliche: No, I'm not dead. Obviously.

As I seem to have finally settled down for the time being, I'll post one final update here to explain things.

So, why haven't I updated either this site or my travelogue in the last year? Actually, the answer is pretty boring, and sure to tick off anyone who was worried about me: Once I was out there, and I got over the initial misery, I realized I just didn't want to deal with it.

For once, I wanted to avoid computers, avoid the internet, and just experience the world without worrying about finding an internet cafe or documenting my life for the masses. Yeah, yeah, pretty cheesy answer, but that's what I felt.

'Blog Burnout'maybe?

I did try checking my email a little later, but every time I tried to log in, it said 'Trouble accessing your account, try again in 10 minutes'. And it's still not working, so I apologize for not responding if you wrote me.

Anyway, as for the trip- I went over budget under half way, so the Mysteries of the East will have to wait until later.

I took what I had left and headed to Florida to spend a couple of weeks with the family before moving on once again.

Which brings us to the present: I'm currently living in San Francisco. Yup, I finally made it back to California after 15 years.

And boy, do I love this city. I've never felt at home anywhere- there was always this lingering feeling that I should be somewhere else. Of course it's still the 'honeymoon phase', but I really feel at home here. No matter where life takes me, I think I'll always end up back here eventually.

I purchased a Sidekick from T-mobile soon after arriving, and it's been enough to satisfy my reemerging internet cravings until I can afford a PC. With built in web browser, AIM and email, along with cellular capability, this thing is, well, always at my side.

So anyway, I'm looking for work and about to restart college. As for my transition, well, it's a fuzzy line. I've been fulltime and 'passing' 70% of the time, but I still want to get a bit of cosmetic surgey, and not to mention the SRS.

I can finance the cosmetic stuff once I start working, but the SRS will probably have to wait 'til I start making good money. And with a biochemistry degree, there's always good work available- but I have to earn it first.

I'm not very concerned about SRS right now. I've never been the 'I gotta get rid of this thing ASAP' kind of person. I pretty much just ignore it, but long term, yes, it will eventually get done.

So, I guess I'll wrap it up here. I'll still blog of course, but nothing technical. No TG Resource or Documentation of a Transition- TSRoadmap and Amberspace have got you covered there.

Just me and my thoughts and musings, less 'TG orientated', and more 'just like the other 6 billion forgettable blogs'. But now that I'm back in the Real World I realize I have to blog to stay sane, even if it's just to myself.

Well, The End I guess. Damn, I wish I didn't waste that 'So long, and thanks for all the Fish!' line... Well anyway, take care everyone, and good luck on your travels through life.

As Confucius said, "No matter where you go, there you are..."

Cheers,
Blake*
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*Yes, Blake. Lara Blake was a pseudoname. Heh. I did have a name change, but it was only my middle and last. I had grown rather attached to Blake, so I decided to keep it. It is unisex, afterall.

Being fulltime is scary enough when you’re in familiar surroundings. I can’t imagine what it will be like thousands of miles away. But nevertheless, this is how I planned it. Perhaps this will force me to grow a bigger backbone.

I’m not sure if I ever explained the specifics of the little trip I’m taking. I’ll be on the road for a while, but you can hardly spit nowadays without hitting a computer with an internet connection, so I expect to be able to update this site fairly frequently.

Though I’ll be traveling and eager to share my experiences, I’ll keep travel related topics to a minimum, focusing instead on what this site is actually supposed to be about- my transitional experiences. Granted, I’ve sort of strayed from that credo since the creation of this site.

Most people just want to hear about the TG stuff, and not my drunk ramblings or how stupid I think my ex-friend Mike is.

Well, that‘s how the site evolved, I guess, and I can’t imagine not adding those little personal touches. But to keep the site from becoming even more diluted with my no doubt sickenly enthusiastic travel experiences, I started a travelogue on another website. The link follows below and is also in the right column.

A Newbie’s Journey (Click the Table of Contents for past entries)

That should keep everything nice and separate, and save those who don’t care from having to sift through all that crap. But if for some reason you DO care, go ahead and Rate it. It will satisfy my narcissistic blood lust for yet another full moon…

So, wish me luck. Til’ next time!

Everything has been calm and smooth the last week. Almost TOO calm and smooth.

I have several quirks, I guess you can say. One of them is that I'm always waiting for something to go wrong, for the other shoe to drop.

My life has been defined by dissapointments, so I guess it's only natural for such an instinct to develop. However, I've been doing my best to suppress it.

I've been trying to get out a bit more, and have noticed a lot of stares, but the comments and snickers have been restricted to only 2 incidents not worth mentioning (Though I did anyway).

In the other Good News department, my passport came. Ahead of schedule, no less. *gasp*

As I said, so far its been smooth sailing. But I have been extremly busy the past couple of weeks taking care of all these little last minute details.

I'm hoping this pattern of everything working out will continue into Monday, because I'd hate for something detrimental to happen with the Starting Line so damn close.