I've been keeping this here for posterity, but the newer stuff, and the archive of this blog has moved (yet again), to BlakeBevin.com!
Posted by L. Blake at 7:59 AM
Welcome to a new New Year.
I'm still in Florida- my flight is in a couple of hours, and we'll be leaving for the airport shortly. It's about 2:45am here.
It always feels weird, that feeling I get when I'm up late/early, about to head to the airport.
Maybe it's because it reminds me of the first time I left California, being woken before dawn by Mom to head out to the car.
I've written before that was the beginning of a downward spiral in my life, as I left a life behind and became someone else, metaphorically speaking.
Well, it's time to look forward, and not back. It's surprisingly annoying how often I have to remind myself to do that.
Anyway, hopefully I'll catch you guys later on the West Cost.
Posted by L. Blake at 11:49 PM
There you are...
So I made it in alright. Stayed in the St. Gregory last night in D.C. It's really nice. I got upgraded to a suite, and it's huge!
Too bad I'm checking out soon.
Well, my Grandma's on her way to get me. Can't believe I haven't seen her in five years!
Hopefully I'll get a chance to see my old neighborhood and hang out with that high school friend of mine.
Well, talk to you soon!
Posted by L. Blake at 7:28 AM
So as I said, today was my first day off in awhile.
I wanted to just stay home in bed, but 'Jewels' needed to be picked up from the hospital, plus a friend wanted me to meet her for lunch, so I hauled my butt into a cab and got Jewels and took her to lunch with me.
All in all not too bad, but my self-esteem suffered a few blows. First there was a little girl scout or something trying to hawk her merchandise, asking me if I liked "Ladies Perfume".
Than there was the group of guys having a loud "debate" of 'Is He or isn't She'.
And finally some teenage gangbangers following me hollering a chorus of 'Look at that Dude!' (The ringleader actually had the nerve to ask me for a cigarette afterwards, and when I said 'No' called me a Fucking Bitch.
Ahhhh, San Francisco, Land of Tolerance.
A little while ago I was telling Shana about a guy who asked me out but I got stood up and never heard from him again. I Theorized that he probably Jacked Off and came back to his senses.
Shana joked that "It's not easy being a tranny." "No," I replied. "It's really not." Which was probably a more honest response than she was expecting.
It's not. This world can be a cruel, dark place, and I really understand when girls like Johnny Boy vent like this:
I'm a pretty cynical person. I expected my life to be like this, and lived it anyway. Some people say that's courageous. I don't know- I certainly don't feel that brave.
I really have to force myself to not get angry, to try to understand where my "critics" are coming from. My getting upset doesn't solve anything.
Well, I don't know where this is going. I just have to live my life, let others live theirs, and hope some people will give me the same respect.
Posted by L. Blake at 8:27 PM
Heya! So here I am writing on the ole' blog while I wait for some downloads to complete.
I am writing this from my new Asus 900ha, a somewhat spur of the moment purchase that I probably shouldn't have made with this economy, but I am loving this thing and I don't regret it.
The keyboard is surprisingly useful with my skinny fingers.
I still love my Macbook Pro, but the battery is on the verge of death, and the power adapter is being held together with electric tape (literally). Rather than replace them, I'm just going to wait until I upgrade to the new 'Unibody' Pro's at the end of January.
In the meantime, the Asus is pretty much my fulltime machine. I loaded Linux on it for playing around with, and I stayed up late last night learning commands and such.
Today has been my first day off since I started this brutal schedule. I had a laser appointment yesterday and I didn't want to go to work all red.
I wanted to have a touchup before I go back home NEXT WEEK. Man, it's really come up on me fast. I'll be working the brutal schedule again tomorrow, right up until I leave.
'Jewels' is in the hospital getting a bunion removed, and I'm supposed to pick her up today. Lizzy also wants me to have lunch with her. Busy day.
Posted by L. Blake at 9:02 AM